Look before you leap

Almost everything is made better by thinking it through before hand. Except murder. Thinking about murder before you do it makes it worse than if you had just killed the person on a whim. It's hard to say if that applies to suicide. There aren't three degrees of suicide. If it is done, it is usually planned and thought out with a little note to show that this is so. If it isn't thought out, they don't call it suicide, they just call it stupidity. (see Darwin Awards)
It is a grim subject, but the unknown reader should know that I am not talking about the death of the body. Or even real death. Merely things that have "the poignancy of death itself." I am not generally of grim person; to prove this is so I have recently taken up wearing bright green.
anyhow, back to the point.

"maybe all I learned from love
is how to shoot at someone who out drew you"

"the forty-four spoke
and she said 'led and smoke (she's the smoke)
eighteen* inches of flame'
The big man had barely cleared leather
Beaten before he could start.
A little round whole had appeared on his shirt
the bullet when strait through his heart"

*(see, I had this dream . . .)